I always told myself and others; things change, people change, life moves on... But as I argued with my dear old friend I wished things wouldn't change, she wouldn't change, and maybe life is moving too fast. I feel like I'm left out from some of my friends life, it is like I don't exist. If so, do I have to let go of the image she portray in my heart that sweet, innocent, unique little girl?
As I noticed myself whenever I met my high school friends I often ended up talking our memories from high school. Sometimes, it feels like the only thing we have common is those childhood friendship and memories. What happens when we finished talking our memories? Are we done like our past? Am I that naive to believe we are gonna be in each others life in 10 or 20 years?
As I grow up, I'm becoming more pessimist; I used to believe friendship lasts forever but now I can't say the same. I hate growing up >_<
Listen carefully
I just watched this video of girl speaking truth that we try to hide without any fear. Sometimes we have to listen carefully what others say...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQmz6Rbpnu0&sns=fb Please watch this and listen to what she is saying.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQmz6Rbpnu0&sns=fb Please watch this and listen to what she is saying.
Monsters?
2012 hasn't been well for me...shitty things are happening everywhere I go. I hope it will turn upside down soon .
So, I just watched Korean movie called "I saw the Devil", this movie is great, painful, and twisted as hell. I recommend it to you everyone who reads my shitty blog and thank you for reading it as well :)
But it made think what humans are capable of? and what did the write go through?
As a blogger I know that when I write I reflect on things happened to me; If that's the case in order to write this one hell of a movie writer must have been through one painful experience and lots brainstorming.
So, I just watched Korean movie called "I saw the Devil", this movie is great, painful, and twisted as hell. I recommend it to you everyone who reads my shitty blog and thank you for reading it as well :)
But it made think what humans are capable of? and what did the write go through?
As a blogger I know that when I write I reflect on things happened to me; If that's the case in order to write this one hell of a movie writer must have been through one painful experience and lots brainstorming.
As for the human beings capableness... It is a scary thing to think but in my humble opinion humans are capable of anything that includes becoming a monster. Even as a kid, I never believed monsters, ghosts, vampires etc. Now that I'm becoming older, I believe monster is not something shaped weirdly, or something that comes out of closet and growls at you. It is a normal person who is capable of hurting someone else. We are the monsters. But the funny thing is we become a monster out of love (chuckle). I can't quite explain what I mean by that but I hope some of you will understand.
2012 New Year Resolutions
First of all, Happy New Year to all my friends and my lovely family. I want to thank my parents for giving me birth and give me chance to live and experience this bitter, joyful life. For 2012 I want to be a better, healthier person. So here it goes my resolution...
1. Keep my word to King Laurenz Bacungan.
2. Be stable financially.
3. Get 3.0 GPA or more on my classes.
4. Pay attention to my skin.
5. Make more friends.
6. Appreciate what I have (always).
7. Obey my parents.
8. Be in shape.
9. Get more sleep.
10. Watch great movies.
11. Spend my time wisely.
12. Eat healthy. (drink more coconut water.)
13. Take quality pictures, and post more frequently on my blog.
14. Read more books.
I think this is it... This is my promise for myself and my good friend King Laurenz Bacungan.
May 2012 will be joyful, successful for me and my friends and family. ^^
1. Keep my word to King Laurenz Bacungan.
2. Be stable financially.
3. Get 3.0 GPA or more on my classes.
4. Pay attention to my skin.
5. Make more friends.
6. Appreciate what I have (always).
7. Obey my parents.
8. Be in shape.
9. Get more sleep.
10. Watch great movies.
11. Spend my time wisely.
12. Eat healthy. (drink more coconut water.)
13. Take quality pictures, and post more frequently on my blog.
14. Read more books.
I think this is it... This is my promise for myself and my good friend King Laurenz Bacungan.
May 2012 will be joyful, successful for me and my friends and family. ^^
The leaf
It's been long since I posted on my blog. Life is going forward as I not planned whether it is good or bad... As I was walking from school I saw this cute kid who was goofing around while waiting bus, and I thought to myself where did all this pass me so fast? Now, I think about it, I feel like I wasn't kid at all. When we were kids all we wanted was grow be cool teenager, when we were teenager all we wanted was get out the house and be independent university students. I'm an student myself now, and all I want is to graduate and work so I can buy things I like, but I don't know if I want this anymore because it seems like life isn't giving us choice it just moves on whether we wanted to hold on our past and be childish. Life isn't slowing down at all, it is moving too fast sometimes I feel like I can't keep up. When we were those kids who didn't have anything to worry other than to play, eat, and loved by our parents; life was in slow motion. But now, we worry about everything school, relationship, money, expectations of parents, future... It is like life cycle when we get old all we want is go back to being childish, making mistakes, arguing over stupid things with our parents and blame them for not understanding who we are (sigh). The sad thing is we can't.
We are like the last leaves that is clinging on tree as long as possible until the strong wind comes and knocks us down... Life goes on so are we. I wonder, what will I be doing on this exact day and time in 5 or 10 years?
We are like the last leaves that is clinging on tree as long as possible until the strong wind comes and knocks us down... Life goes on so are we. I wonder, what will I be doing on this exact day and time in 5 or 10 years?
Just Missing
Dear,
As I was watching Sex and the city, I wondered will I have this friendship? I know, life ain't movie but I just want friendship part to be true... I'm freaking pessimist (that gives me an excuse to write this).
To tell you the truth, I just miss my friends so much... in my heart there are few girls that makes me laugh and cry and I hope&believe that they are gonna be there for me whatever happens in my life ups and downs. As I recalling my old beautiful memories and crying, I wish they were here with me! I really do... I miss arguing with them on tiniest thing in the world, bitch about each other to each other (because of little frustration), having fun regardless the consequence. Oh! How much I miss those times.
My hands feet are freezing but I know that if they were here, I wouldn't feel this coldness. Instead, I'd be laughing with them and talking, gossiping ridiculous things that even matter to us. I miss you my dearest friends Bolortuya, B. Zolboo (hehe), Bayarmaa, Tsengel, Nomin, Ariunchimeg... There are no words that can explain how much I miss you guys all I can do is recall those wonderful memories and sob to myself...
P.S Listen to the song, it's beautiful like you guys are! Thank you for being my friend.
Love,
Saraa
As I was watching Sex and the city, I wondered will I have this friendship? I know, life ain't movie but I just want friendship part to be true... I'm freaking pessimist (that gives me an excuse to write this).
To tell you the truth, I just miss my friends so much... in my heart there are few girls that makes me laugh and cry and I hope&believe that they are gonna be there for me whatever happens in my life ups and downs. As I recalling my old beautiful memories and crying, I wish they were here with me! I really do... I miss arguing with them on tiniest thing in the world, bitch about each other to each other (because of little frustration), having fun regardless the consequence. Oh! How much I miss those times.
My hands feet are freezing but I know that if they were here, I wouldn't feel this coldness. Instead, I'd be laughing with them and talking, gossiping ridiculous things that even matter to us. I miss you my dearest friends Bolortuya, B. Zolboo (hehe), Bayarmaa, Tsengel, Nomin, Ariunchimeg... There are no words that can explain how much I miss you guys all I can do is recall those wonderful memories and sob to myself...
P.S Listen to the song, it's beautiful like you guys are! Thank you for being my friend.
Love,
Saraa
Attention seeker?
I heard this from TV series called Criminal Minds 5x22 "Internet is forever" and there is a clip it starts 0:26 and in the end Morgan (btw I love him) says; "But we all like to believe actually there is an audience out there that wants follow our every movement" If that's the case every human being is attention seeker?
I'm not gonna lie here, I crave attention sometimes. It makes me feel like a pretty, smart, sexy in other words it gives me boost of confidence. But am I an attention seeker? Yes, but sometimes I like being an invisible, loner.
Yesterday, I talked this topic with my friend and he said he likes being an invisible but it seems like he is denying the fact that he craves attention as much as other people. Because he has this 3 types of people he hangs out and he doesn't stay home at least for a day. He is always out basically his life is hard to be an invisible. Does it sound like a person who likes to being an invisible? Even though, I believe everyone is someone's attention center whether it's parents, friends, lovers or even strangers.
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